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Sun, Jul. 1st, 2007, 04:40 pm
sassy_momma: Hi

my friend told me I might have ppd. She had it with her 2nd child. Here's my story...

In November I had my son via emergency c-section. They didn't know until then that he was breech. He was born ON his "supposed" due date according to the ultrasound. Well he had meconium in his lungs. They told me he was very sick. Later on he had a seizure from sedation meds. they gave him (and they never asked our permission) to put a feeding tube in him. We were in the hospital with him a week trying to get him well and teaching him to breastfeed. He had no suck or gag reflex when he was born. They told me he would be 'slow' (he's not).

My son is 7 months old now and I don't feel like I used to still. Like I said my friend says I have ppd. Pretty much I don't have a babysitter. I am with my son by myself most of the time because his Dad works. I refuse to put him in daycare this young. I hardly ever want sex. I mean, I didn't want it all the time before I had him but I at least wanted it a couple times a week. Hell, we think he was conceived one night when we had sex 4 times.

I'm tired a lot, but I can't seem to take naps when he does hardly ever. And he has a hard time going to sleep at night so I am up with him until 2 in the morning sometimes. I feel like my nerves are shot. Everything gets on my nerves. We have this place here called Advantage Behavioral Health that deals with depression, anxiety, etc. They take you as a patient and charge you based on your income. They give you meds. and all. I've been there before but it's been a few years and I had quit going on my own. Do you think i should start going back there?

Sun, Jul. 1st, 2007 08:56 pm (UTC)

I'd say if you're really not feeling like yourself and you have such a great sounding option for care, then you owe it to yourself and the baby to at least check it out. It's not going to hurt anything for sure, and can very likely help. I know it's VERY hard to ask for help with depression issues, but if you're at a point where you are reaching out, as you are here, it's a good sign that you could benefit from some support, if nothing else. Do you have any family or close friends nearby who could come and watch the baby and let you get some sleep every so often? That'd be a huge help too.

I wish you much luck.

Sun, Jul. 1st, 2007 09:30 pm (UTC)
sassy_momma: Thanks

The only relative we have that has wanted to watch the baby (and who we trust) recently her mom died so we aren't asking her to keep him right now. She's got like 4 kids of her own (all preteen-teenage age), but she's always taken good care of him when she's watched him. The only other relative we have that we trust has also watched him b4 but she owns her own business so she's too busy as well right now. lol I can sleep, just lately it's like from 2 a.m til like 8 or 9 in the morning and then when he naps during the day I'm almost always doing stuff. I'm considering going back to school (taking online classes) so that will be an even greater challenge, but I know mother's who do/have done it.